major buzz on against all medical advice and reason

i haven't really been drunk alone for awhile now, and i have come to the conclusion that i rather enjoy it. because, when you're drunk around other people you lose inhibitions and say the things to people you REALLY want to say to them. when you're drunk by yourself, you can't control where your thoughts linger and you, in a way, end up saying the things to yourself you've been avoiding saying to yourself or have been trying to keep secret from yourself. and, there you are wide open and vulnerable to your own mind, which in a way is way more scary and poignant and honest than being wide open and vulnerable with other people, because in the end you only have to accept and live with yourself nobody else............